Go Red Sox.

Elder’s Meditation of the Day
“everything is laid out for you. Your path is straight ahead of you. Sometimes it’s invisible but it’s there. You may not know where it’s going, but still you have to follow that path. It’s the path to the Creator. That’s the only path there is.”
–Leon Shenandoah, ONONDAGA
Everything on the earth has a purpose and a reason for its existence. Every human being is a warrior and every warrior has a song written in his/her heart and that song must be sung or the soul forever remains restless. This song is always about serving the Great Spirit and helping the people. This song is always sung for the people. Many times I need to learn much about the difficulties of life. I need to know this, so I must experience it. Then I can be of use to the people. Because I am experiencing difficulty does not mean I have left the path or that I have done something wrong. It means I’m doing the will of the Great Spirit during these times of testing. I need to pray constantly to keep a good attitude.

Great Spirit, this I know – You will never leave me, only my doubting makes it seem like You do. This I know – Your love is always dependable, only my doubting makes it seem like You do. Today remove the doubts from my belief system and allow me to stand straight and see You with straight eyes.

The weekly randomness. Right after LV called to tell me the basement was flooded again, I got stopped while they cleaned up a wreck here in KY. Car went across the median, caught the front in the ditch and end over ended of course stopping in the lanes I was headed… so we sat, watching helecopters come flying to pick up the carnage, then waiting on the investigation, before they allowed the vehical to be moved away…

Hell, I don’t even feel in the mood to write anything, but I will because I’m bored and there isn’t anything else to do right now. Guess I could watch a movie, that would probably help get things moving…. because you know just as soon as the good parts start the traffic will be cleaned up and moving again. Oh well, so I sit, less than 20 miles from the place in KY that I’ve been driving to since I left PA at 6 this morning. It’s my own fault though, would have been past this area before it happened if I hadn’t stopped about a hour ago, to induldge my sinful desires, (candy and bathroom). Amazing how a extra 15 minutes would have mattered sometimes, maybe I would have been past it, maybe it would have crossed over just as I got to the very spot at the moment the wreck was happening and been involved in it. So as I sit watching the lights flashing in the distance I guess I can only wonder.

Newt Gingrich is thinking about running for President, hope it doesn’t get to tough for him and he has to resign again like he did when he was Speaker of the House. How hard of a job could it have been if a moonbat from Calfornia can do it. I guess we will just be choosing the lesser of two evils like the last election of Presidente’. I’m not sure right now who I’de vote for.

The Boston Red Sox won the AL East championship last night with a win over the MN Twins…. But they clinched it by the Danged NY Yankees losing to the Orioles in Baltimore last night. When I went to bed about 11, the Orioles were losing 8-2 then I wake up and they won 10-9 in 10 innings…. Woohoo. This means the Red Sox play the CA Angels in Boston to begin the playoffs while the Yankees have to go to Cleveland and get whooped by the Indians. It’s always better to start the playoffs in yur own sandbox. Gotta love the NY Mets though, having a 7 game lead on Sept 12th and blow it and not even male the playoffs 2 weeks later…. yeeeaash. gives a whole new meaning to the term choke.

Peace, TWC

Listening to Grandfather

Elder’s Meditation of the Day
“Follow the Old One’s advise.”
–Tom Porter, MOHAWK
The Old One is called by many different names – Grandfather, The Four directions, Father Sky, Mother Earth. We should seek the advice of the Old One to help us build our vision. He will put inside of our mind and heart the vision that we are to follow. This vision is recognizable by the feeling that it has with it. This feeling is hard to describe. It feels “right,” it feels calm, it feels joyful, it feels warm, it feels sacred. The Old One has a way of letting us know it really it His advice. Listen carefully!

Grandfather, I’m listening.

I love ballons…. they should be having the Ballon Festival here soon…. I remember when it wasn’t so popular and nice to go and watch… now over 30,000 people usually show up and it’s just to many people for me anymore….

Pretty boring day.  Got up at 4 am for work, drove 2 hours to Langhorn, PA then back…. whoopie, then came and picked up LV, out to lunch at Chili’s… can we say too much grease, and some lame arse Nachos.  Then we went to the Salvatin Army store where LV went to look around while I wandered over the Gander Mountian to scope out a few pistols (Ruger P90 in .45) and a new canoe…. I WANT A NEW CANOE…… really really bad.  Got home before the kids got back from school, beat them by maybe 15 minutes…. muhaahaahaa

One of the kids is ragin us about buying him a cheat thing (Action Replay) for his DS lite so he can access cheat codes… unfortunatly everything I find about it except for the people seeling it talks about how crappy it is… how it works for a while then crashes, how it screws up you games, messes with the game controller itself.  Told him we aint getting one…. ain’t worth buying a $30 cheat thing that’s gonna blow up his $150 DS lite.

But of course I’m the evil one and he doesn’t seem to think it’s bad because they wouldn’t sell it if it was right…. duh

Hope ya’ll have a awesome week, Walk in Peace, TWC

Tolls and thoughts on God

Elder’s Meditation of the Day
“The most important thing you can do during the course of the day is to pray.”
–Joe Coyhis, STOCKBRIDGE-MUNSEE
There are many things we do during the day that are important. There are many places we have to go and there are many things to accomplish. The old ones say, the most important thing we can do is remember to take the time to pray. We should pray every morning and every evening. In this way we can be sure that the Great Spirit is running our lives. With the Great Spirit we are everything but without Him we are nothing. All Warriors know their greatest weapon is prayer. To spend time talking to the Creator is a great honor.

Great Spirit, thank You for listening to my prayers.

I’ve decided who I’m going to vote for for presidente’   The first one running who stands in the way of the Iranian President if he tries to ‘visit’ the WTC site and tells him to get out…. That’s who gets my vote, not that I expect any of them to do it.

LV bought me the newest Tess Gerritsen book this week, it came out Tuesday.  Yes I’ve finished it already.  Marvleous book, sure to be another NYT bestseller.  Her last book is still number 7 even though it came out almost a year ago…. The Bone Garden.  She’s a wonderful author… yes they are a little bit on the creepy side… probably why I love them.  Must be something in the Maine water.

Got home today about 4 pm from work… off until Monday when I go back for the morning then hopefully to a protest locally in Harrisburg at the Capital over the proposed toll roads on I-80 here in PA…. waht most people don’t realize is the for trucks every road is a toll road already.  This happens through the IFTA (international fuel tax agreement) tax where every road and mile traveled in each state must be reported and the fuel tax on those miles paid.  Basically this is doen so that people don’t buy fuel in cheap states and drive all over another state without buying fuel. (some trucks can travel over 1600 miles on a tank of fuel)  This in turn allows each state to collect the taxes on the fuel used in their state rather than it all going to the state it was bought in but not used in.  It’s a good thing actually because it’s fair for every state, and every state gets money for the miles a truck is driven in that state.  Tolls are nothing but a second tax on all vehicals (incuding little car people). Fuel taxes are already paid on each gallon purchased, trucks pay the additional IFTA tax.  If states used the money collected for the roads instead of all the pork barrel crap they spend it on … roads and bridges wouldn’t be nearly as bad as they currently are in our country…. but even as bad as they are they are still the best roads in the world.

I found this on godtoday.com

Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!  Psalm 34:8

Falling in love with God, is the greatest experience of all. It is within a loving relationship with Him, that we discover He is our ever-present source of love, peace, and unspeakable joy. It is His perfect love, which dominates all of creation in this world and the eternal. Simple faith in Our Creator affords us the opportunity to live in the presence of God, knowing Him personally, with the ability to speak to Him as a friend; respect Him as a Father, trusting in His ability and His wisdom to continually guide us. Inside each heart is a desire and ability to know God personally, if only each heart will recognize and embrace Him.

You are our God. Thank You seems inadequate for the opportunity to know You personally. You fill our lives with Your goodness, we lack nothing. We continue to seek to know You more and to place our confidence in You. Thank You for always being there, speaking, loving, working and manifesting Yourself to any who will receive. Amen.

Walk in Peace,

Elder’s Meditation of the Day – September 12
“If you get troubled, go and sit by the river. The flowing water will take your troubles away.”
–Joe Coyhis, STOCKBRIDGE-MUNSEE
Sometimes we get mixed up and we don’t know what to do. Go to the river or creek. Take your sage and tobacco; sit and be still. Talk to the water, offer tobacco and the healing water will take your problems downstream. Give thanks.
Great Spirit, heal my mind today, let me see love.

Okay, this entry is a little off the wall, actually it’s more on the wall, literally. Hope you can understand where I am coming from in this entry. Yeah it’s a political rant. I wrote this Thursday night while waiting for the soldiers to come to work Friday morning, I feel safe surrounded by the 101st Airborne on Thursday nights at Ft Campbell, I sleep well.

“KILL ALL ELLEGAL ALIANS AND TERROREST”

This message was scrawled across the wall on a public restroom I used today in Wytheville, VA. I didn’t correct the spelling. The first thought that came to my mind was ‘only if we can make it retroactive to 1492.’ I can just picture the man who wrote this in my mind. I won’t go into my description. It’s easy to stereotype what I think this man would look like, all to easy . . . We see pictures nightly on the news of immigration protestors and “Minutemen” protecting the border from the hoards of illegal people crossing daily. People who think this way scare me, for two reasons. First because they clearly don’t understand American History and the acts of terrorism committed against the indigenous peoples inhabiting this land before Columbus “discovered” it. Probably never realize’s as well that Thanksgiving Day was actually consecrated to celebrate the slaughter of Native Americans. Secondly, the obvious command of the English language they hold. Is it possible for someone to actually graduate High School in the United States and still be illiterate? Unfortunately yes. The only difference in my eyes between a Native American and a Mexican? A line someone drew in the dirt. We are all equal people in the image of our Creator. Maybe it’s time we started to act like it.

Later as I was eating breakfast I got into a discussion with some others while watching the news of Israel and it’s war with Hezballah. Then it turned to a discussion of non-combative verses combative. Who are they, where is the line drawn. Are the combative people only the ones carrying the loaded guns? The ones with their finger on the button?

What about people like me, people who are in direct support of the US Military. If someone wasn’t doing my job, the 101st Airborne wouldn’t be able to do their job in Iraq because of the lack of products they need to replace or repair their equipment. Am I then a combative person? What about my Grandmother, who installed radar equipment on submarines during WWII? That lead to the death of Japanese and German people, some ‘civilians‘ on cargo ships. Is she a combative or non-combative. What about the ladies in Kansas City who built the Enola Gay, the plane that dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima, what are they?

Maybe the children, women or elderly? All through history children, women and the elderly have held roles of direct support of the military or even carrying weapons into battle. Our own Civil War, The Germans in WWII used both children and elderly. The Vietnamese used women, children, elderly in their war with the United States. Throughout history we see this happening yet we are shock it continues today.

What about farmers, they grow foods which when purchased are used to feed our military. The factory workers who manufacture the products the military requires. The people who manufacture the products the people who manufacturer items for the military need to live their lives. Or the counter help at Dairy Queen who sold a ice cream cone to a soldier once. The Cashiers at Wal-Mart or any other store where a Military member might shop. What about them?

Who are the Non-Combative? I think Plato said it best, “Only the dead have seen the end of war.” In one way or another we are all responsible for the current status of our planet, even if it’s just through the vote we cast to elect someone into a public service office. Or the back we turn to the injustice. We shall all stand before our Creator and be found guilty. In my eyes we are all combative I our own small way.

So much for Peace, TWC

Life was Simple

Elder’s Meditation of the Day whitebison.org
“Listen to all the teachers in the woods. Watch the trees, the animals and all living things – you’ll learn more from them than from books.”
–Joe Coyhis, STOCKBRIDGE-MUNSEE
Nature is a living example of how communities live in harmony. If you go into the forest or mountain and sit still and watch, ask yourself, what lessons are being taught? Then watch how the animals conduct themselves. The trees could represent diversity. The flowers could represent people. Notice how everything in nature assists one another. See how balance works. See how conflict is handled. Can you see acts of forgiveness? Can you spot respect? Nature is full of wisdom if wee will only consider her to be our teacher.

My Creator, today let me learn from nature.

I remember many days as a child, spending the night or nights in the woods alone.  With my old wool army blanket, a green canvas tarp and my Red Ryder BB gun.  I also had my sheath knife that was hand made by my grandfather, (still have it).  I learned many things alone out there, about the Earth, how to be still, and how to listen.  All things I am grateful I had the opportuity to learn.  Didn’t have but three TV channels, no video games, Ipods or cell phones.  I lived outside most days except in the winter time… NH gets quite cold that time of year. I’m not sure how many acres I had to run around on, probably 50 or more, usually by myself.  Wooded area, swamp, fields and just plain old dirt in some areas.

Now this area has been claimed for hotels, highways, a school and other stuff for too busy people.  When will we learn .

I am I

Elder’s Meditation of the Day whitebison.org

“I remember Dawson (No Horse) said, ‘Once you say your prayers, don’t worry about them. If you worry about them, they’ll just fade away.’” –Chuck Ross, LAKOTA

Today I need to remember You are everywhere. I need to remember how much You love me. I need to know, Grandfathers, that You are always listening. Today I need to know how much You care. Today I will remember the advice of the Elders. “Say your prayers and then don’t worry – know that the Great One has heard you.” It’s so much easier to do this, Grandfather, when I feel connected to You.

My Creator, allow me this day to feel your presence. Let me walk the path of life today and talk to You many times. Give me faith, my Grandfather.

The Elder’s Meditation is something I found years ago that has taught me so much about life and my relationship with my Creator. Only two other book outside scripture have helped me in this way. Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for Your Highest which I began reading my first year of college in 1984, and The Wind is my Mother, by Bear Heart a book I found not two years ago.

Who am I might you ask? Nobody really, just a 49 year old grouchy truck driver with Comanche heritage. I don’t use the word Native American, because I’m not, I’m Comanche, Grew up in Portsmouth, NH, before leaving there in the fall of 1976 in the US Navy. Spent a little over 6 years Construction Mechanic, with Jimmie Carter and Ronald Reagan as my Commander in Chiefs. Saw hostages in Iran and still don’t believe they were actually suppose to rescue anyone in the failed attempt in 1980. Graduated from Valley Forge Christian College in 1989 with a BS in Bible and Theology, minor in Psychology and Missions. Found out real quick upon graduating that religion and the politics thereof make really bad bed fellows for someone not afraid to say what they’re thinking. So I migrated over to the human services field, until the socialism finally drove me away.

Spent 14 years in a failed marriage, wondering why God wasn’t answering my prayers about it. Finally as I came to the place where I realized it never was to improve and after seeking, reaching and begging for outside intervention, I said “the hell with it, time to move on,” so I did.

So, I’m stuck here and don’t know which way to turn. So I guess I’ll just turn it off.

Walk in Peace, TWC

Btw, I don’t get to update everyday, due to work and my inability to justify spending money on a wireless broadband card so I can “get” online.

Day 1

I don’t know what to write, I really don’t want to write anything.  I know I need to start over, I have for a while. Mostly with life, I see it slipping away, going in a direction I don’t want to go. I guess I’ll never be one of the “cool” people. Not if I have to sell my soul to the devil to be one. I have made to many mistakes, listened to too many lies, fixed my eyes on the wrong path. Now pushing 50 I am trying to make up for all the wrong things I’ve lived and done. I feel chained to the past. Like trying to swim with blocks tied to my feet. Continuing to struggle against the pull of sure death if I stop fighting. Yet fighting leads to the inner conflict within my soul. One day I shall find the Peace I seek. One day I shall indeed be a free man.

I’ve been told by someone I need a vision quest. poohie, I speak with my Creator daily, my voice is known to the Creator. And I know my Creator’s voice. Taking the time to listen is the key. For it is when we listen to the wind whispering in the trees, to the sound of a leaf falling, of a slow brook in the field. When we take the time to listen to a ant walk across our floor, a moth flutter in the light, the moon as it travels the night. When we still the mind and world from intrusion, then we shall hear from our Creator. For our Creator is patient and polite, so unlike us.

Have you the slightest reliance on anything other than the Creator? Is there a remnant of reliance left on any natural virtue, any set of circumstances? Are you relying on yourself in any particular in this new proposition which our Creator has put before you? It is quite true to say – “I cannot live a holy life; but you can put yourself in the place where God’s almighty power will come through you. Are you sufficiently right with our Creator to expect Him to manifest His wonderful life in you? It is not an impulse, but a deliberate commitment. You say – But the Creator can never have called me to this, I am too unworthy, it can’t mean me. It does mean you, and the weaker and feebler you are, the better. We say – “If I really could believe!” The point is – If I really will believe. If we really believed that our Creator meant what He said – what should we be like! Dare I really let The Creator be to me all that He says He will be? Adapted from Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest.

Crazy Horse, A Sioux Indian Chief, a great and fierce warrior against the whites, was said to be the humblest man in his tribe, always with his eyes downward, never focusing on his own accolades, never wearing the signs of the great warrior he was. Just a humble man, of great wisdom and courage.

I wish I was as spiritual as I think. Yes, unfortunately doing what is right is a whole lot harder than knowing or thinking what is correct. That is where we as people get into trouble, we allow our own arrogance to control our actions. I struggle within, mostly I think with frustration. I allow my outward circumstance to overwhelm me at times. It’s difficult for me to cope with the constantly changing emotional states I have to deal with. I long for stability and a constant, level emotional state, something I guess I will never have.

Yes, I know these have a awful fundamental Christianity anchor attached to them. Myself I have no problem separating the rhetoric from the spiritual truths. I view the Bible as a spiritual book with spiritual truths. I don’t see it as a science or history book. For me the the truths are the more important issue, I believe that all “scriptures” from all religions hold truths, the ability to wean those truths from the rest is far more important than the adherence to the “faith” of the writings.

I see laying down my life for a friend as dying to ones self and allowing the friend to see you as the Creator sees you. What can we hide from our Creator, we are open and laid bare in the presence of our Creator. Where can we go where the presence of our Creator doesn’t exist, to the highest mountain, to the moon, how about Mars or beyond. We should learn to be open and honest, to our Creator, our friends, to all. Yes, a hard goal, one I suck at. But I try. It’s so easy to hide behind a monitor and be something you aren’t. I have learned this and it has caused me much pain and grief. Sometimes more than I care to admit. Such is life I guess.

I am experiencing some really trying personal stuff right now.
I covet your prayers, your offerings, your friendship.

I know this kinda rambles….. sorry